I couldn’t seem to get it together over the past few years. My heart was always fighting in training and development but I knew I was making a difference in the lives of people with disabilities. The salary wasn’t a bad salary but I knew something was missing. For five years I drove maybe 12 minutes to work in a place where a smile could pierce and bad hair day and a hug could melt all your problems away. If the world outside was raining the sun was shining inside and all I had to do was get there. Pauli did that… Washington did that… Millie did that… every day. What did they have in common? a major disability and it was my job to make sure life was the best possible life during the day at the Center.
As much as I enjoyed being there, my hands would sweat and my heart would race whenever I was asked to make a presentation to my peers or come to the Maryland Works office to make a presentation… this was my love… this was what captured my heart even more… Training & Development of training and empowering staff. I had to find a way to do it daily… I had to follow my passion and I knew now was the time… The concern that I had was tied to the “What if.”
Was there a way to do both? Who would pay me for it? How can this work? What if it doesn’t work? Could I train the same groups and organizations and make a living? Honestly who was I kidding… how could I leave a job in the midst of a changing system? I had endured 7 State Director Changes… fiscal budgets where over 35 million dollars was lost and I was having trouble following the Executive Director I was working for too… I knew there was a better way but how could I show it? How can I say it when I wasn’t living in my passion?
What if it doesn’t work! and then I heard deep down inside of my soul… What if it does work… What if you can prove your hunch or theory? Why aren’t you working in your passion? Why are you settling, when you could be creating the life you imagined? My career had taken a pretty cool turn and I was comfortable. I had a nice title, a nice corner office, a nice team that was able to get the job done… why rock the boat? After all I was doing some training hear and there and it was good enough to wet my need or was it? Is it for you? Have you taken the time to really look at what you are doing and evaluate your greatness? I knew I had to make a change and it came in the form of a email from my Vet rep. The USDA is looking for Training Technicians. I made a declaration and decide to loo at the big picture… what was my life telling me that I wasn’t quite listening to? “Dwayne you are a teacher, a speaker and you need to be producing something and using your creativity… you are settling” If this sounds familiar it may be time to take another look at who and what you are. Are you saying one thing but doing another? is there something that gets you so excited that when you are engage in it you don’t want to quit? Does it wake you up at night and give you more energy? It’s probably your TAG… your Talent, Ability & Gift or Gifts!
Here’s a quick exercise you can do. Post on your social media site, send an email or even call or write a letter to 10 of you top contacts, friends and associates and ask this question…”If money wasn’t a concern (and it’s really not) and you were going to give me advice or coaching on exactly what I should be doing with my time based upon what you truly know about me… what would you suggest or tell me to Go DO? Once you get the answers… find a way to go do just that… volunteer, do it part time or go after it. Come back to my next post and I will share exactly what I did an perhaps you can follow my lead and go follow after your life’s inner compass. Don’t settle… live your best life… today. DR